Another challenging day living with a partner with bipolar,today’s events bring my 17 year marraige one step closer to the end with my partner deciding its time to move on.The real estate agent has been called and the paperwork filled out for our house to be put on the  market.

No amount of persuasion or tears and tantrums is going to change his troubled mind.Life as I knew it is about to change,for better or worse,richer or poorer in sickness and  in health,those were the vows I took all those years ago,I have had the better,richer and health part and now it is with great regret I am having to face the worse,poorer and sickness but it’ s not me I am concerned about,but my partners mind who finds it hard coping with day to day life.

Doctors  who now claim he is depressed have only given him  more medication ,which only makes it worse for everyone,a bandaid solution that masks the root of the problem.Bipolar disorder is a very complex illness and takes many years to properly diagnose,in childhood it is sometimes seen as ADHD in adolesence it usually shrugged of as going through puberty.It is only after several manic episodes that a proper diagnosis is done.

The scary part in all of this so called proper diagnosis is the same medication is used to treat schizophrenia and epilepsy so is it really a proper diagnosis,or a take this pill and see if it makes a difference,but don’t stop taking the medication or you will find yourself back to where you started.

So as I sit here quietly contemplating my next move,not knowing where I will be in a few weeks time,It is time to throw myself into the numorous courses i have on my hard drive to try and make some very much needed income to get me through the long road ahead.