Well after a year I would rather forget I am back with avengance,or should I say with desperation,If nobody knows about the mental illness bipolar,and what devastating results it can have on everyone,I am living proof  that not only does it destroy the person with the disease but also destroys relationships and businesses.

My marraige is all but over,my business has closed down,and the banks are close to forclosing on my home.My husband who is the one with the illness is in the depressive stage of the illness and the rest of what little strength I have left am trying to stop him from becoming suicidal,although he has spoken about it often.Medication to bring him down from the high and the early warning signs came far too late,as until they become a danger to themselves or those around them the doctors will not intervene,believe me I tried,all I could do was sit back and watch my life come crumbling down around me while my husband walked out on me,found a new girlfriend who just got out of prison for armed robbery,and was a drug addict who’s only motive was to get all of the assets we had worked 10 years to aquire signed over to her,so she could calmly feed my husband the drugs that would end his life,this was found in a note she had  written to her boyfriend who was serving time for the robbery they had committed together.

How close this was to happening still crosses my mind,when I think of the will that was found when he went missing with everything left to her upon his death ,the girlfriend had returned from a trip they took together and gave numerous stories as to why he didn’t return with her.Panic set in after he failed to contact family and friends after 4 days and all phone calls went unanswered.

As another symptom of  bipolar is dellusions,he was eventually found naked in the east timor sea after stealing a boat to sail home from darwin which is where he was staying with his girlfriend at the time.After a lengthy standoff with the east timor police,with gun shots and battles between them he was eventually captured and taken to a timor  prison.With no clothes and no id he was locked in a cell as to what I have been told is one of the worst prisons  in the world.

From his name and country of birth they mangaged to track  me and family down and it is then I set about trying to get him home.

At the time in his eyes I was the bad guy in all this and during his dellusions,was convinced I was trying to poison him,although we weren’t living together at the time.My daughter who is a model was supposedly an undercover cop and I was using her to cover for me.He even went as far to try and have me arrested for attempted murder.Luckily for me I had been to the police to advise them of his illness and how destructive he could become and could they please keep and eye out so he didn’t harm anyone.

Fast forward 12 months on ,after spending thousands to get him out of prison,and back to australia in one piece and into a hospital my bumpy ride is still not complete medication has calmed him and now he sleeps most of the days away,with as he says no purpose to live,as he was the licence holder to the business without him it was unable to run,I have managed to clean up the mess that was left behind and pay all his creditors thankfully without tarnishing his licence and company name.

As for the rest of it well its one day at time,the banks won’t wait much longer and with no income I am now trying to find a way to clear personal debt and find a way to live.I have been out job hunting but having  just turned 50 have been told by many I am unemployable.So my last resort is to come back to where it all began 12 months ago and try to make the internet my sole income.

To some my tale might seem unbelievable but to those of you who know about bipolar,you will know the devestation it can cause.They say when life gives you lemons make lemonade,well life just happen to give me the whole orchard,I have enough lemons left over to make everyone lemonade,so for me life can only get better.

Here’s to everyones success!